Here’s my true confession for today. Way back when–almost 20 years ago–I admit that as a student I wrote some sonnets. That is what students do, right? Recently one called “A Berryman House” was published in an online journal.
It’s strange to see your older work getting published. My friend Cynie Cory published American Girl recently, and she told me it felt uncomfortable to her because the poems in the book were so different from what she’s writing now. Although I never write sonnets now and haven’t done so for a long time, for some reason it doesn’t bother me. Perhaps it’s arrogance on my part or some sense that my poems are separate from me, a derivative of my past. Maybe if my publication were a book rather than one poem on a web site, it would register differently in me? Hard to say….
Berryman’s Dream Songs made a huge impact on me as I began writing poems. I inhabited those poems for many years. I dreamt; I sang. I Henryed. So maybe that is why the publication of my not-brand-new poem seems fine with me. It’s not that I like these messages from my past or dislike them either. They just are.
From Dream Song #114:
Mr Past being no friends of mine,
all them around: Sir Future Dubious,
calamitous & grand:
I can no foothood here; wherefore I pines
for Dr Present, who won’t thrive to us
hand over neither hand
from them blue depths nor choppering down skies….